Taking a break was not a decision that I made lightly. I thought long and hard over the course of a few weeks. I just can’t keep up!
As stated previously on my blog, and multiple times on stream and in Discord, life’s been kicking my butt this year. I’ve mentioned that my monthly bills exceed $3,000 and I’m doing my best to maintain my job. Based on the general consensus that I get online, it is assumed that streamers and YouTubers make a lot of money. While it is possible, it certainly is not the case. Especially for me. On average, I am currently making about $55 USD per 2 months from content creation which hardly puts a dent in my bills or money saving plans. As much as I love to stream (it seriously pulls me out of depressive spirals), streaming by itself is not going to help me to grow.
I need to switch things up. I need to change my plans. In order to get more money from content creation (so that I can upgrade my tools more comfortably), I need to grow my prospective audience. In order to do that, I need to make evergreen content on more discoverable platforms. I already have some experience with doing so in the past, though not much. My YouTube channel’s been able to grow to 4.47k subscribers, but other YouTubers who started after me have grown their following to much larger numbers. Niko Variance has grown his channel to 7.6k subscribers and [Remi the Dreamfox] has grown his channel to 11k subscribers. Meanwhile, my channel’s just been putting along.
In order for my channels to grow, I need to push out videos. I need to create content that is discoverable and engaging. However…
I don’t have time.
I could hire a video editor, but…
I don’t have the money to do so.
I have to do everything myself. If I want to create videos, I need to edit them myself. If I want more time to stream and edit, I need to get better and faster at video editing. Which means, I need to take a break from streaming so that I can have the time to practice video editing.
I honestly wish I could do both, but with each stream that I do, I fall further and further behind in my video edits. It’s not maintainable.
That’s the reason why I’m taking an indefinite hiatus. This time away from streaming will be spent on creating other forms of content. Primarily long-form and short-form videos. With that being said, I hope you’ll stick with me as I go through this learning journey. There’s so much I don’t know. I don’t even know what would be considered funny/entertaining to people. I’ve been told in private that my video on sleep tracking is an good/entertaining video, but I view the entire things as a piece of garbage experimental video.
Throughout it all… Throughout everything. I just hope that I can create things that put a smile on your face and the faces of your friends. I hope that I can create content worth sharing and that everything will be okay. Unfortunately, if I lose my job, I am toast so it takes my #1 attention and priority. Second to that, is taking care of my well being. Third, my family. Any remaining bits of time go towards content creation, and no personal money is able to make it there. I’ve had to cancel a bunch of subscriptions across the board to save money where I can. I hate it. I want to buy a new streaming PC so that I can stream in HD. I want to hire a video editor to make YT videos for you all to enjoy. I want to be able to stream a lot more, but I just… I can’t ;~; I can’t do it at all. I have to take life one step at a time and move slowly and carefully. I have to shoulder the burden of doing pretty much everything by myself. When possible, I rely on my friends for things like “Does this video look good?” or “What do you think of this idea?” or even to lift my mood. Making it as a content creator though… Bringing every idea to reality all falls upon me at the end of the day and I’m doing the best that I can.
Anyways, sorry for the rant. Hope you’ve been well and I’ll see you around <3